Thank you for opening my post, I changed my name because I am embarrassed and feeling humiliated as if I am an animal.
Merried now 14 yrs and living together 16yrs. 3 children (2girls 11 and 12) and a baby(7months).
I am not from here neither is he but many many years both of us living and working in Uk ( him more than 30 and me almost 20).
Through out our life there were here and there incidents where he would beat me , can't handle argument and than just lashes at me. First incident was after giving birth to my first one, even neighbour called police that's how he was beating me up but couldn't say anything because my immigration situation . Than he stopped for some time, after my second dd came he started again. Still was just taking in and living like a prisoner. All that time I was working very physical job( only stayed 1 week at home with both my DD's).
He calmed down for few years but today I think he just made up for all that time he was quiet. I am not working ATM and neither he is( made redundant). He ripped all my dnociments( I have residency), banged me on the wall, kicked the s... out of me and name calling can't even state what he said to me. I am fed up, if baby is not here I would long time killed my self, I am shadow of myself, living just to survive.
I don't have money to move and I am scared, I can't recognise the woman in the mirror- who is that pale faced ugly , tired of life person? Is she really living, the one who was full of life, faith in people , life and he made sure I don't talk to anyone.. Thank you for reading ,,,
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