Oh lily

There was an article in the Evening Standard this evening about the Lister offering ANYONE free IVF. I can't find it online yet, but will post if it comes up tomorrow

af on her way. Foiled again.

lissie sending you positive vibes I think your decision is the right one for you and N and although hard to make you will find peace x

Thanks for the advice Lissie. Best wishes.

Rainbow - That is awful news, I'm so sorry.

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Lissie - I hope you get some peace as time progresses. I can understand your need to stay away from the ttc boards.

Looks like I am having another miscarriage, so not feeling very chatty at the moment.

lily, i would speak to a herbalist before taking it, it can be v powerful and annovulation is only one possible cause of infertility.

thank you all for your kind words. am really feeling no better. i always thought that when i'd had enough i would feel a kind of peace, and i dont. i feel bitter and unutterably sad for the family that we wanted. we have ds, which is more than we ever thought we would, but i feel that i have cheated him out of an experience that would have made him so happy. i feel unfulfilled, but, enough is enough.

i think i need to leave the ttc boards now. i am sad and (as i said) bitter because other people are getting pg. i know that them having babies doesn't stop me, and there aren't just so many potential children in the world, but i hate the person that ftc has made me. last round of clomid. last cycle ttc.

i hope to still see you all around and that you soon get the healthy happy pg's and babies that you deserve.
love you all and thank you for all your support over the last 3y xx

I think I got as far as buying a bottle, but then started on clomid, then switched to tamoxifen and my cycles suddenly became text book (ovuating on day 14 and everything!) so I never really took it.

I would say anything's worth a go though. I've decided to start having acupuncture again...

Thanks Heebee. Sorry to hear about your af.

I was wondering if anyone has tried using Agnus Castus (think I spelled it ok)? I never heard of it and a nurse was telling me about it recently as she had success using it. Anyone got any info?

xxx

Hi all

lily so sorry to hear about your nana - thinking of you..

lissie - thinking of you.. look after yourself, and hope you see you here very soon

Rainbow - hope you're ok

Duritz - hi and well done on staying strong...

Well the waiting list for the lap and dye means I will probably have to wait until Jan/mid-Feb. I tried to fluff it a bit using my private medical insurance and say it was for endometriosis. They correctly assumed that there would be fertility problems in there, but said they would do it if my consultant faxed them. My consultant said she would do this, but as they want a copy of my original referral letter, which would be for fertility issues, I'm not sure how creative she is prepared to be...

And, AF arrived today. Yee hah...