This is regarding possible sexual assault from husband, sorry this is long but I need some advice.
About 3 weeks ago I bought up with my H that I wasn’t very happy, there was nothing major but contributing factors included my lack of sex drive, we have two young DC’s, 3 and 1 and I’ve been exhausted and the past year doing everything in the house, I’m a sahm, no nursery/child care what so ever and family live far away. I said I’d felt no desire to have sex and it had been this way for months if not since younger dc was born. We’ve been back forth in discussion about it and it’s become a huge problem because sex is EXTREMELY important to my H.
We’ve tried to look to solutions to the problem and he’s helped more around the house, we’ve looked into councillors which we were setting up and he promised to give me some space when it came to sex, because one huge issue was his constant pestering for sex, talking about it, grabbing me if I walked past him, I’d hate to walk around naked and would rush to shower so he didn’t see me and make a sexual comment or try and grab my vagina (in a “joking” way apparently, or because I’m his wife he’s “allowed” to do it).
So tonight we were in bed watching tv and I fell asleep, I woke up to him touching my bum and putting his fingers in my vagina, that’s what woke me up. I jumped and he quickly said something alone the lines of “what’s going on? You were pushing into me trying to have sex” etc etc, I don’t remember everything he said. I didn’t think that was true because although I was laying on my side and he was behind me I was not up against him and was laid in the position I would be to sleep which would mean for me to be pushing against him he’d have had to have been on top of me which he wasn’t. Also I was asleep.
Something told me to brush it off and lay there and pretend to sleep to see what he’d do, and about 5 minutes later he was doing the same thing and masterbating thinking I was asleep. I just froze and I don’t know what to do. I laid there for about an hour waiting for him to fall asleep which he didn’t, so I got up pretending I’d woken to go to the toilet, he asked me if we were going to talk about what happened, he again said I’d been trying to have sex with him, I said that wasn’t the case and I was asleep, it was clear from what he was saying he was only referring to the time I woke up and doesn’t know I know he just touched me again while masterbating.
I have a history to childhood sexual abuse which he of course knows about, we’ve been together 11 years. I can’t sleep and I don’t know what to do, am I over reacting? Does this happen a lot? I’m not happy in our marriage due to a lot of factors but he’s a great dad to our children and works hard for us. I just feel horrible now
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Possible assault from husband
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boymum9 · 23/01/2019 03:44
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