To do the same thing again?

[OhDoAdmitMrsDeVere]

Its that time of year again.

Its Billie's birthday tomorrow. She would be 20.
TWENTY.
She would be grown up and at uni and working and have a boyfriend that I could terrify.

But she is not is she? She is dead and she will never get past 14.
So I can let off her ballons with her little brothers. One who talks about her all the time and two who never met her.
I can buy a cake with butterflies on it and we can eat it and I will think about her.
I can expect my family not to send a card or call me.
Then the day after I can start the countdown till her anniversary in April.

So please, please help stop this happening to someone else's child or loved one.

I know I do this twice a year and its getting boring but PLEASE
sign up to give blood
sign up to give bone marrow
give a little money to Clic or TCT or anyone you want to.

Please do something. Telling others what they can do is just as useful and giving a pint of blood because I know not all of us can.

This year is particularly important because last time I went to give blood (December) they told me I couldnt give any for at least 12 months.

I cant help, I have let her down so I need people to help give those pints that I cant.

I have to get through tomorrow. I really dont want to.

Ohh MrsDeVere

I'm so so sorry for you. I will be thinking of you and Billie tomorrow.

I am already on the bone marrow list but I've never given blood. I have no excuses it's just one of those things I've never got round to doing. I have a doctors appointment next week, I'll ask them where I can give blood locally. Thank you for inspiring me to do that. You have not in any way let your daughter down.

I am so sorry MrsDeVere. I have seen the photo's on your profile page and your Billie is gorgeous. How you must miss her. I am so so sorry for you.

I give blood as often as I am allowed and am on the organ donation register. I will join the bone marrow register as well.

If I can say this, I do not think you, in any way, have or could let your wonderful DD down.

I know it is not allowed by (((((((())))))))

I have my appt to give blood on Feb 10th, I was thinking of taking an iron tablet for a couple of weeks, just to be on the safe side, but someone has told me if you are taking any tablets you may not be able to donate? Does anyone know if thats true?
I'll be thinking of you and your family tomorrow MrsDeVere x

Thinking of you. I already donate blood but will sign up for the bone marrow as well.

{{hugs}} to you MrsDV

I will. And I have never have before. So you are making a real difference MrsD.

i filled up my spit thingy for antony nolan earlier today :)

sending lots of cyber-strength to help you through tomorrow.

How dreadful but good to remind everyone how important it is to donate. I've just booked my next appointment to give blood xxx

put your postcode in here to find where you can donate

I've never given blood, terrified of needles but will find out about where I can tomorrow.
Thoughts are with you and all your family

I'm so sorry. You have not let her down.
I will be asking to join the bone marrow register.

I keep meaning to go on my friends just giving page - he is running the Edinburgh half marathon for Clic. I shall go sponsor him now xx

Just bumping to remind everyone to give blood and go on the bone marrow list.

And I have seen a picture of your Billie-beautiful girl, and I am so sorry that you lost her x

mud its not that bad and you dont have to look. It really doesnt hurt and the people who do it are really quick.
You will feel like superwoman if you manage it. But if you cant - your mission is to mither someone else into doing it

this year is so hard.
She was just becoming a teenager when she got sick and now her teens have gone without her being able to experience the highs and lows of those eventful years.

I wish I had my daughter. I love my sons so much but I miss my girl. I will never be a grandmother to her beautiful children. I will never hold her hand whilst she gives birth. I will never get to hold her children.

She is gone, she is gone and I am her sad music and I play on and on and on.

I'm so sorry.

I was refused as a bone marrow donor a while ago but should be eligible again now - this post has given me the kick I need to re-apply. So thank you.

Thanks for the link marble. I will be giving blood on the 14 Feb.

I bought a lovely cake from Sainbury's. It is pink and has white butterflies on it.
The boys are looking forward to eating it

DS2 has already worked out who gets to let which ballon off. He gets to let off no.2 whilst DS3 gets to let off no.0
Thats all DS3 & 4 will know. Letting of ballons and eating cake for a girl they never knew.

Silly question but can you give blood if you are breast feeding? MrsDeVere I have never given blood or been on the BM register but I will now so you have made sure that I do. What a difference you are making.

My thoughts are with you and your family tomorrow and daily.

I can't give blood but have recently signed up for the bone marrow register and have been on the organ donor register for years.

You do an amazing thing by posting about Billie mrsd it raises so much awareness.

I've just made an appointment to give blood MrsDeVere. I am so sorry for your loss, and thank you for giving me a push to start donating blood, again one of those who's always meant to and never quite got round to it. You havent let her down....look at the difference you've made already!

I will make an appointment to give blood and donate to tct.
You have not let her down :(
I will be thinking of you all tommorrow.

Thinking of you Mrs DeVere. I thought they didn't want my blood but I phoned just now and seems they might do. I'll see if they'll have me for bone marrow too, and if not I'll mither too.