Hello again.
I had a thread on here last week about my OH
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/930847-DP-leaving-then-not-leaving-how-to-take-back- control
Well after a stressful week with events too frequent and insane to imagine, I'm throwing him out TODAY.
Here's the jist of it -
Fri night he text me at work asking for money for his friend to get a taxi to ours to keep him company (!) I text back saying that is beyond rude, you NEVER text me to ask how i'm getting on at work , just cs you want something and i hate it. He text back "Are you giving me money or not?" When I came in from work at 9pm and challenged im he said "I just want freedom, I yearn for freedom" I said you have all the freedom you want then and went into living room. I heard his freind telling him he was out of order to say that etc.
Next morning he woke up hungover and I asked him to leave. He went right up into my face angrily shouting "I HATE YOU!!!" whillst I was holding youngest DC and within earshot of my DD (4). Then more nasty things (I can't remember, was in shock). Told me he was saying at his mums and not to bother asking her to look after DC's as usual on a Saturday for my work as he would "tell" her not to! .
Next day his mum called to ask why I didn't get back to her about my overtime (she was going to be watching LO's). I told her what he had said. Apparently he wasn't there, had stormed out of her house telling her she wouldn't see her grandchild again and hadn't been back all night. Turned his phone off.She got taxis to friend's addresses that afternoon to try and find him. Finally found him and he told her he would "come back when I'm ready and I won't beg" WTF????
Anyway she threw him out that night and he came to mine in the rain last night so I let him in on the premise of only for a couple of days until he sorts out somewhere to stay ie-his friends.
I was feeling very ill this morning and was sick so asked him to get off the couch at 9am when I'd been up an hour and feed DS as the baby food smell was making me sick.
He said "Are you incapable or something??" . Told him his behaviour is disgusting beyond belief.
Then in the kitchen he said "I hope you're not pregnant again. You'd better go to the doctor to find out. We both don't want another screaming one like that do we? You'll need to get rid of it" .
I admit at this i was engraged and started screaming at him to get out right now.
He then shouted "You don't even want your own children! I'll take my son and you can see him at weekends if I decide"
"Look at your daughter - you don't even love her! You don't even love your own daughter!" He was smiling, it was very scary.
I'm not sure if she heard. He was in the kitchen and she was eating breakfast in the living room. I'll never forgive myself if she did. My poor DD.
This was the point I went for his eyes with my hands, I'm ashamed to admit but I was enraged and had kept relatively cool and quiet until then cause of the DC.
Then he all of a sudden started crying and begging, saying he doesn't want tolose us etc.
It's over for me. I know that now without a doubt. When he said that in front of DD I knew, even before I knew.
He had the cheek to say (all sorry for himself) "Do you not want me anymore?" "I'll leave you for a few days to give you space then like you want"(excuse me, I want you out of my life forever. I just feel nothing for him anymore but hate - like that 'the moment you knew it was over' thread).
I'm sorry for the length of this post, and please don't go for me, I'm still in shock. I go into shock when he says nasty things and freeze.
I need advice to stop myself getting conned into letting him back in (told you i wouln't put him on the lease AF! deep down i always knew it would come to this - it has taken over a year to gradually get to this). How do I remain strong? What do i say to him?
I don't have any money to change the locks until at least Thursday (payday), but there is a bolt on the door so he couldn't get in if I was. But he could if I go out.
I want him to leave without fuss and more arguing. I cannot take any more. I really can't. I have had numerous panic attacks the past few days because of him. Please help me and advise me what to say to him if he comes back to keep him away and make it clear it's over and not to come back, but without making him kick off.
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Lilia87 · 23/03/2010 12:17
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