This is a difficult topic for me so please bear with me and I apologise if the post comes across confused. I'm not sure how to start so I will just tell you about myself, it might be a bit rambly.
I'm in my early twenties. I'm married and have been for over 2 years, my husband is the same age as me. We are in-between places to live at the moment so have been staying at my family home where my parents and two younger siblings still live. We've been here about 2 months now and we should be moving into a new flat in about 2-3 weeks, which is in a different city.
I get on with my parents mostly ok. Actually I'm fairly close to my mum and we get on most of the time, I'd say about 80% of the time, and when we argue it mostly stays calm and civil and then isn't talked about again after it ends. I think it's quite a normal mother-daughter relationship? My dad and I get on ok most of the time too, but it's probably more like 60% of the time, and I wouldn't describe us as being close. When we argue my dad has a big temper and can quickly became very mean and insulting, and also holds grudges and remains angry and wound up for many days after even a relatively small bout of bickering. I don't think this is very normal?
I want to remain having good relationships with my parents because I do love them and they are good parents. However they have done many things that I disagree with - I imagine most people can identify with this, I imagine that is normal? I'm talking mostly about when I was a teenager because I have had mental health problems since childhood. I believe their poor reactions to that directly resulted in me still suffering today, but I understand things aren't black-and-white and they had a tough time of it too and didn't know what to do. Anyway that's one issue that I still find hard to deal with, but the biggest thing is that they still try to control me now that I'm an adult. The only reason I get on with them mostly ok is because I compromise. A lot. There are many things I have to forgo when I'm around them to keep the peace, they are not really big things, but when they all added up together it feels that I constantly have to pretend around them and that they don't accept me for who I am. Some of the things I have to censor around them, for example: my religious views, the way I dress, the way my husband dresses and his religious views too, I'm "not allowed" to drink alcohol even outside of the house nor am I "allowed" to go to clubs, I'm "not allowed" to smoke even outside of the house - to the extent that I have to carefully monitor tagged photos of me online because if there is an alcoholic drink near me in a photo it would cause such a massive fall out it would take months for my parents to calm down (has happened before), I'm told off for swearing online, I'm told that should me and DH get a dog soon like we are planning to do that my parents won't visit my house, I'm told that I'm "not allowed" a tattoo (they freaked out when I was 19 and got a helix piercing - by that point I was already engaged and financially independent of them).....the list goes on.
I don't know what I'm asking for really I just want to know how far I should compromise, how far is reasonable to censor myself and how far is not? I don't want to be disrespectful to them and their wishes and I can't change their thoughts and opinions on things however conservative they may be, but it is suffocating sometimes for myself that they cannot just live and let live. I feel that therapy might be useful to explore my issues with them further but I find that in counselling the counsellors will not really tell you what you should do - for obvious reasons, but I feel that is what I want, I want someone to come and tell me what to do! I want someone to tell me who is being unreasonable in each circumstance, me or my parents, I want someone to guide me.
Sigh. Sorry, maybe somebody can just have a chat with me or something?
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Controlling Parents (possibly long)
MeadowHay · 20/08/2016 19:13
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