DH has depression, been struggling with it for the last 2 years, and we have an 8 month old dd. When he's depressed he is a nightmare to live with- quickly angered, moody, doesn't speak to me for days on end, does nothing around the house, can't cope with looking after our daughter. At his worst he was quite abusive- calling me names, screaming at me, never violent but quite intimidating and 'in my face'. He's been on medication for the last 18 months, and it works brilliantly- within a week or so he's a different man. He's been hugely sorry for the way he behaved..
When dd was born he stopped taking his meds- he says he thought he didn't need them so just stopped, without telling me. Anyway, he became a nightmare, and I had no idea why. It took 3 months before he'd admit he'd come off the tablets, so that was 3 months of me being miserable, and him being a frankly shit dad and doing nothing for the baby. I was furious with him, and he promised to never do it again. He stepped up and has been a great dad.
The last 6 weeks he's been awful again- moody, withdrawn, grumpy etc. I've asked him a million times whether he's taken his tablets, he's always promised he has been taking them. I've been frantic with worry about him, and dd has stopped sleeping so I'm also utterly exhausted. The other week he told me he doesn't think he loves me any more, so I've been pretty much heartbroken too. Today I sent him back to the GP because I was so worried- he came back and told me, you guessed it, he stopped taking his meds 2 months ago- apparently he 'just kept forgetting' (for 2 months, with me asking him every other day??!!). He apparently didn't do it on purpose and it's not his fault. I beg to differ- they are the single most important thing he should be remembering right now - the thing that keeps him well, enables him to be a good dad and husband and a part of our family. I am beyond furious with him. He has lied and lied to my face saying he has been taking them, driven me mad with worry, seen me sobbing and heartbroken and at the end of my tether and at no point did it occur to him to maybe tell me he wasn't taking them, or to start taking them again! I know he is ill, and it is crap to have to take tablets, but he's been totally irresponsible and stupid and selfish, and a million other words I have just yelled at him. (I know this is not helpful)
I need you guys to talk some sense into me, and tell me if I'm being hugely unreasonable or if I'm right to be so angry. At the moment I'm just too cross to see straight, I just spilt cereal all over the kitchen and broke my favourite bowl, because my hands were shaking I was so furious. I can't even look at him.
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So, so angry with DH!
Glabella · 23/05/2012 11:17
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