XP had been having an EA for up to 2 years. I spent 2 years in denial, convincing myself it was in my head. Being convinced int was in my head, but ultimately I allowed it to happen.
In Feb this year it finally came to a head when I found confirmation that it was more than EA (but not quite physical yet). XP kicked out. Now living 200m around corner. OW is 50m over road.
I hate having to face her house every time I go off my drive.
I hate having to do school run at same school as her DCs
I hate having pass XPs flat and thinking...oh he's up early this morning...oh yeah it is OW's day off they will be meeting up for a shag after school run
I hate having to watch XP and OWDH standing together all best buddies when one is shagging teh others DW
I hate discouraging my DCs from playing with her DCs
I hate that I can't bear my DCs playing with her DCs (especially after XP admitted he "used them as as an opportunity to reinitiate their affair within 2 weeks of them both lying to OWDH)
I hate that i can't trust XP to have the DCs without using them to facilitate a relationshipe with a married woman.
I hate that I am so exhausted all the time (and I am sleeping at night)
I hate that I have not motivation to get out of bed on teh weekends when XP has DCs
I hate that I have no-one to hug me and kiss me (sexual pleasure can come from other sources but a kiss can't)
I hate the thought that I will be alone forever. Not that I am ready for another relationship but I wouldn't know wheere to start/find someoen when I am ready. Who would want a single mother of 3? When am I going to get out, none of my friends, not that I have many are single looking for a date.
I need to move because I hate the proximity to XP and OW, but can't move far because I am committed to a course.
When I do move I hate that it will be away from DCs father, but I can't stay here, I have nothing keeping me here apart from teh stress of the first few points.
I can't help but think that one solution to all this is to drive my car into a tree. I can categorically say that I am not planning on do anything to faciliate that, but if it did happen it would be a solution IYSWIM.
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I hate this :(
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