I know its over, really, deep down, and has been for a long time. I still love him, or i love what we had. 20 years is a long long time, and most of them so very special. We have the most adorable 5yo DD who idolises her daddy. This is will break her heart, but how can i carry on with this when its only going to get worse.
How do you get past that, if your relationship has gone sour, its not that i have come to realise that DP is a bastard, he isn't, he really isn't. But life and business and money worries have finished us - how do you get over it? Im not even sure i know where to start, how to breathe, part of me has died.
No good discussing ins and outs really, blame, its on both sides.
What now? practicalities seem irrelevant almost. People survive divorce - but i thought we were different you see, we had the perfect love and it would be forever. Im 40,unattractive and have no career. I try and think about our/my future, i just see nothing, a void, nothingness, black, dark dark.
So tired
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How do you come to terms with the fact that what was once so wonderful and loving, is now so toxic and hateful?
SunshineisSorry · 16/02/2011 18:43
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