Hi all this is my first time posting on MN so please be kind, especially as I am at a very low ebb.
I have a six month old son who I love very much but who has never slept through the night and has recently got worse following a cold and teething and stomach bug hitting at the same time. Also I have always suffered from insomnia anyway.
My husband is mostly great but drinks too much and has a strong tendency to go AWOL and not pick up the phone and then come back in the small hours. This means I lie awake stressing and getting more and more angry with him and more and more exhausted.
Anyway this happened tonight (hence the post at 2.15am) and when he got back I just saw total red and started to hit and scratch him. I sicken myself and feel so ashamed but at the same time there's a small voice inside me saying that it was justified because I am so shattered and drained and never ever get a break etc. But I know it's wrong and I don't want my husband to leave me because I love him.
Please help I feel like I am going insane.
Thank you.
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I lost my temper with my husband and hit him - hate myself
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Ladywithababy1 · 19/06/2015 02:15
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