First of all, may I warn you I am a man and I apologise if I have broken any rules by coming here, but please let me state my case and if I am still wrong to be here I will leave without any argument. I am the father of a beautiful little boy, although all I have ever seen of him is 3 photographs.
I just need to ask the people on the 'other side' for their honest opinions, and of course those people are single mothers. I have been searching for some help and stumbled across this site and decided to at least ask, as I have nothing else to lose now. I will keep my story as short as possible.
Last year, a few months after finding out I was going to be a father, it became alarmingly clear my partner had only ever wanted me so that she could become pregnant. I know this may be hard to believe, but when our relationship ended her actions and words made it perfectly clear. I had done my bit and was no longer needed. When my son was born, although I was informed by my ex's mother, when I asked to see him, she (my ex) told me I could not.
Now I grew up in a fantastic family home, 2 parents and a brother. But my own mother was a childminder, and I was raised alongside many other kids, a LOT of which came from broken homes, and I saw first hand just how it affects kids.
The reason I mention this, is that I know I can drag this all through the courts to get a chance to be in his life, but I made a decision not to... the reason why?.. well, having seen what happens to kids when parents war with each other, I dont want that for my son. I dont want to put him in that place where each parent is constantly sparring to go one better than the other, or is complaining about what the other one did last week.
BUT.. this is where I need your help. May I ask your opinions on this? I think about my little boy every day, of all the things I have missed and all the things I will miss. I don't want him to grow up and think I didnt love him, I want him to know I believed I was doing right for him.
I have read some of the threads discussing actions between parents, and one about not wanting your ex's to have your children in the events of your demise...but I know I can be a great Dad, I just dont want to make my boys life so complicated by just being selfish and wanting access.
Does anyone understand?.. I could really use some help right now
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Ollydoesntknowme · 03/06/2006 21:52
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