Over the past hour, i've suddenly come over as what I can only describe as queer.
I feel very very shakey, sick, can't get comfy because I feel too nervous & I've got this weird uncomfortable feeling in my shoulder which is driving me up the wall, feel like I could cry, but can't if you know what I mean.
I feel panicky and my heart is beating ten to the dozen, I've also come over very very hot.
I'm on my own with the kids as DH is in the pub so have no idea when he is going to be home, kids are due in bed in half hour and they are no problem going to bed, I can't go have a bath or early night (I only had 4 hours sleep last night cos of my shoulder) because he hasn't got any keys.
What the hell is wrong with me???????
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ShedHead · 03/04/2006 18:31
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ShedHead ·
04/04/2006 08:35
Morning everyone
About an hour after my last post dh came in and I THINK I know why I was so nervous. I still don't feel 100% this morning, but I think that is just anger.
DH came in last night at 8pm, so much for the 5pm.I phoned him at 7,30 to ask where he was and he said in the supermarket walking round, I asked him what he was getting and she said he didn't know, didn't know why he was in there except he was looking at womens bums, so I hung up, tried to call him 2 times later and both times no answer, i had visions of him locked up etc. It took it 10mins for him to get the change out of his pocket to pay the taxi driver, he threw the shopping out of the taxi into the middle of the path and then proceeded to fall down the drive.
He fell into the house, threw the shopping everywhere and stayed on the floor, I left him there and covered him up. I couldn't settle though as I know what he is like.
At 10pm he came upstairs (took him 20 mins) and when he got to the top he nearly fell backwards down them, then I help him stand, he went to walk to the bathroom and he nearly fell backwards through my childs bedroom, he went to the loo and promptly fell asleep, but not after spitting a few times on the bathroom floor 
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He tried to get into my bed, but I was having none of it, I pushed him into the spare room and he fell asleep in bed, THEN came into mine at 4am and pinched my mobile phone so he could put the alarm on (he was up for work at 5)
I came downstairs once he was snoring in the spare bed and went into the kitchen and broke down, he had peed ALL OVER the kitchen floor at least twice, the covers i covered him up with and his clothes were drenched, and then as he was walking into the living room he had peed again on boots and clothes, (My boots etc) my childs coat, so going to have to dig another one out.
Before when this has happened i've cleaned it all up, not this time, I have had enough of feeling sick whenever he goes out for fear of what he will come home like and whether he will be able to talk/walk etc. So, I got a load of his clean clothes from the laundry pile and threw it all on top of the pee.
This morning I got up to find that he had made NO effort to tidy it up, so, EVERYTHING has gone in black bin bags including his trousers with what i assume his wallet and all his money, outside the back door. I AM NOT wading through his pee soaked clothes.
He also left a very expensive coat at the pub, which my best mate saw and picked up, not that I'm telling him.
He has now phoned me 5 times this morning, once I answered as I thought i was his work telling me he had come off his bike, when I heard his voice, I hung up, now when he rings I ignore the phone.
Don't shoot me down, I've had enough and this is the straw that broke the camels back, I AM NOT standing up for it anymore. For goodness sake I nipped into the pub with him and came out after having a glass of diet coke, he seems unable.
He isn't a alcoholic, but he is a binge drinker and can't seem to contain himself when he see's his mates.
Do you HONESTLY think this could be why I came over funny last night, because it was after the time he said he would be home and I was worried what he would be like?
If you've read this, your a star, but i have no-one to vent with and feel sick typing it all.
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harpsichordcarrier ·
04/04/2006 08:46
yes, it sounds very likely that - if you anticipated this behaviour - that this would make you prone to a panic attack
have you tried to tackle him about this behaviour?
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