Hi everyone I just want to write down how I feel. I have PND which came about after my son was born in December but I didn't get any help until about a month ago. I'm in the RAF currently in Cyprus and on maternity leave. I have another son who is 18 months old. I hate being at home on my own with them, every time they cry or whinge I just cry, I don't want to interact with them or anything. I don't feel like going out or seeing any of my friends as I can't be bothered to get myself ready. I'm getting married in less than 3 weeks which is great but the PND is overshadowing that and I'm not even excited about it. I'm snappy all the time with the boys and the other half. We also recently found out we are posted back to the UK in September to the same unit which is great but then I look at childcare costs and we cannot afford to live and pay childcare and I don't want to live seeing the people I work with more than my children. I want to leave the RAF and I can leave on account of maternity but with both children I opted to take an enhanced pay option in return for a years return of service per child otherwise I have to pay back the difference. This totals upwards of £15000 so I am absolutely stuck. Also on our next posting we will both be subject to detachments in Afghanistan and I am absolutely terrified and convinced I am going to get killed out there. DP doesn't seem to understand my worries and just tells me not to worry about things you can't do anything about so every time I talk to him I just feel worse.
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