I have a 3 year old and a 6 month old. With the 6 month old boy I had terrible post natal depression - had CPD which helped a bit. I breastfed until 3 months but then couldn't get a let down due to stress so have expressed since then. I still feel traumatised by this. My husband made comments like " I don't know what I'm coming home to" or " I don't know what will happen when I walk through the door" and I'm devastated by this. It was a couple of months ago now and I'm feeling much better but it still really cuts me up. I just feel like I have no dignity left. After my son was born I feel as though it really affected our relationshiop. Tonight we had another row ( I was grumpy all day - don't really know why but it happens to me a lot and then I feel so bad for my 2 children to have me as a mum) and I just realised I feel I have no dignity left. I was a high flying career woman, very successful but I really struggle as a Mum. I worry that I'm not a good Mum, that I'm grumpy and not nice to my children. I have tried so hard to improve my mood and most of the time it is ok but I am a slightly depressed kind of person at home (but not at work bizarrely). I feel like it's such an effort to be a Mum. I felt suicidal up to when my son was about 3 months old and hten after I gave up breastfeeding, I think i got a bit more control back in my life. My daughter (3 years) is very jealous but is better now. I think it will be better now the weather is improving too. I just feel that the last few months have really damaged my relationshiop with my husband. I feel like I have lost my dignity and this depresses me more. I wonder if anybody else has felt like this after having depression? I htink he thinks i am weak and I worry that i will never laugh again or have fun - that i'm not the person he married.
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cpanda ·
11/04/2010 22:13
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