I broke off my 8 year relationship with Ds's father a month ago. Up until last night i hadn't cried a single tear. We broke up because the relationship had fizzled out and i felt like i was the only one putting in any effort. ex will admit to this.
So for the last month i have been keeping busy with DS (19mo) and have been trying to make time to see some friends socially. I've had a few ups and downs as a result of the breakup and have had MAJOR financial strains as well as DS breaking his collar bone. All a particularly stressful time.
But yet i still hadn't cried...until last night. Ex came over to watch DS whilst i went to a class i got to on a monday night. When i was on my way home i got a text from him saying not to buy myself any food on the way home as he'd ordered me chinese.
Strangely this was the thing that tipped me over the edge and i think i freaked my ex out. I sobbed my heart out..it hit me like a tonne of bricks. I told him that its hard to detach yourself from them and move on when he's being nice to me. I also felt really frustrated because if he had have done little things like that more often then maybe i would have felt more appreciated and less taken for granted. And maybe we would have still been togteher as a family.
I am really mentally drained today. Trouble is i don't have a counselling appointment until next week and i'm pickling my head about the whole thing.
Why now?
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Feeling very emotional and down all of a sudden
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livingthehighlife · 16/02/2010 12:12
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