Feel like l'm losing it- please help

[cocopops]

I came off citalopram last october after 1.5years. Came off slowly and was ok at first but December expecially xmas was difficult, i was in tears a lot and january hasn't been that much better.

I asked my neighbour this evening to move his car forward as i was having difficulty getting my car into my drive and he started ranting at me saying he'd only do it if I undertook that l'd park my second car close up to the white line outside my driveway as all the neigbours were fed up with with me leaving a space which means that other cars can't park behind me. This was the first i'd ever heard of this, no one has complained before and I said I couldn't undertake that as i leave a bit of space so that i can use my driveway more easily. He said in that case he wasn't moving his car. He did move it eventually and when he did he shouted at my window from the street ARE YOU HAPPY NOW.....

So, ive been in tears in front of my 6 yo dd for the last 2 hours. Husband has just come home and wont really speak to me even although i'm sitting here in floods of tears. (Only time ever discussed MH issues was when I first went on ADs and I told him and he jsut said sorry to hear that. No further discussion ever took place on it).

I don't know what to do. I don't particularly want to go back on ADs but i seriously think i'm losing it.I just want to drive my car into a brick wall- everyone would be better off without me.I get so keyed up about parking issues in my street- that's not normal is it. I try to hold down a professional job and juggle but increasingly feel like l'm failing everyone.

sorry to vent.just needed to get it off my chest. Do you think I need more ADs. I feel like such a failure not being able to cope with life.

[Simply]

Hello cocopops. Sorry to hear that things are so tough for you atm. Have you made an appointment to see your gp again so that you can discuss how you feel and work out a way forward?

P.S. Sorry my post is so short. I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing but didn't want to not reply iyswim.

[cocopops]

thanks for your post. am thinking about going to see gp again but feel like such a failure. thought l'd got over it all whch is why i came off them last year but now I feel as if i'll be on them forever

[woodyandbuzz]

Neighbour issues really bring out the worst in people so give yourself a break in that repsect - people can be really rude and nasty over relatively trivial stuff.

I doubt that you are failing everyone - your DD loves you to bits, I'm sure. Would you be able to speak to your DH? It does seem pretty unsupportive of him not to discuss this with you and help you through it.

I can't say whether you need the ADs or not, but if you don't want to go back on them, try to get your DH to talk to you and support you, or alternatively another person such as your mum or a friend?

[Simply]

Lots and lots of people take ads. They're not failures. In fact, they are doubly not failures in my eyes because they are willing to accept that ads might work for them and they'll give them a go in the first instance. I know it's hard, but try to distance yourself from the problem for a few minutes and pretend that your situation is your friend's situation and see how you'd talk it over with her. (Sorry, I have strange ways of looking at things. )

It really doesn't matter if you're on ads for weeks, months or years. I'm on a tablet that I need to take daily for life. I could let it bother me but I don't. To me, it does a job and lets me get on with my life.

Btw, I know of a few MNers on ads. I don't think any differently of them knowing that fact. Not at all.

[cocopops]

Now made appmt to see gp. Thanks everyone for listening.

[Simply]

I'm pleased to hear that cocopops. Good luck with the appointment and come back to this thread if you'd like to talk it over some more.