I was diagnosed with severe PND 3 months after my 1st DD was born. At the time, my GP advised stopping BFing to go onto anti-depressants. I said no to the meds and said that I would go down the talking therapies route, not wanting to give up BFing.
Six months on and I find myself sat here in tears. I feel so stupid and ungrateful... After a horrendous childhood, I am so unbelievably lucky right now - I have the most wonderful, precious daughter and a husband who loves me (for some unknown reason!) BUT there is this dark cloud hanging over me. Some days I am fine and other days I doubt that I will make it to the end of the year. On one hand, I am petrified of losing everyone I care for and on the other, I think they'd be better off without me... I suspect that depression was always lurking in the background, but I always laughed things off and had the energy to deal with anything life through at me... not anymore!
I had an assessment with the local CBT lot in Dec 2008, who said they couldn't really help and that full-on counselling would be my best bet, along with meds. I know I have to sort out the counselling thing but I feel that if I ever find the time to start sessions, everything will come to the surface and the floodgates will open... I am so scared. Only my DH and mum know about the diagnosis. I can't talk to my friends about it, they would be horrified to see me like this. I seem to be avoiding most friends and feel as if I can't even talk with people properly now - it's like I'm wading through thick treacle, IYKWIM?
I'm posting here to ask - is possible to be on anti-depressants AND keep BFing? If so, which ones? I desperately want to keep going with the BFing, at least until a year - so a few more months.
I feel like if I have to give that I up, I really will be a complete failure. After a pregnancy and birth that were as far removed from what we wanted as possible, I just don't want to lose the one thing that gives me (and possibly DD!) the most happiness... DH is v.supportive but I know that he wants me to keep BFing, too. He's seen how bad I can get and says he will support me whatever I do, but I would feel so disappointed for all three of us if I have to give up...
TIA for any advice x (sweet Jesus, how long could one post be?! sorry...!)
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Can I keep BFing if I start taking meds for PND?
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squintytiger · 31/05/2009 01:35
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