severe panic attack last night - scared it will happen again tonight

[naswm]

I know that sounds stupid, but since it got dark and as the evening is approaching I am getting more and more scared.

How can I ward this off?

[MissisBoot]

Do you know what may have triggered it?

[MissisBoot]

Is there anyone else with you?

[thesockmonsterofdoom]

have a up of tea, and put some crap on the telly, friends or something equally lighthearted.
sorry you are feeling this way ( and what have I told you about the name)

[naswm]

I think it weas brought about by emotional stress and turmoil - although at the time I did think it might be a bug - because there were physical as well as mental traits - but I am sure now it was just because of the emotional strain atm. I've had a rough few weeks and in particualar had had a tough couple of days following a disturbing therapy session.

I am not alone - and wasnt last night - although I WAS alone, IYKIWM. despite this going on from 9pm - 3am dh wasnt aware. Although at one point I nearly rang 999 when I was worryingly suicidal and he woudl have found out then - but I managed to hold it together.

I have taken things very easy today. But as it has got dark I am getting jittery. I am DREADFUL regarding associations generally, and I cant help but think of what started to happen last night not long from now.

I spent 3 hours this afternoon making lego which was a good distraction. I am struggling to eat today (after the severe nausea etc last night) but I think perhaps I should go and try to have something now and find some crap on tv to watch...

[fizzbuzz]

I have found the best thing for anxiety is keeping occupied. Not nice relaxing stuff like reading or watching tv, but stuff that occupies your mind

Talking about it helps, so talk to your dh. accept it is happening and don't fight it, but go with it.

[naswm]

Yes talking is good. I ahve had a long msn chat with my friend DG. Cant talk to dh - but cant go into why etc now, sorry

i tyhink the lego today really helped. sitting here for much longer probably wont though - but I am a bit scared to move atm.

I will go and see if tehre is anyting funny on tv..

thanks

[JollyPirate]

Hi naswm - check out this site for support in coping with panic attacks. Also stay online and keep talking to people.
I suffer panic attacks from time to time and I know they are hideous (and affect us all in different ways). At the moment I am okay but it doesn't take much. If it happens just remind yourself it's a panic attack and it will pass. Do some deep breathing (use your tummy muscles) and try to slow your breathing down. When it gets dark it's harder for any of us who experience this but you are not alone. Is your DH supportive - could you have woken him up?

[JumpingDizzy]

Definitely eat as I find low blood sugar triggers mine (as well as other stuff)
Are you on any meds for PA? I'm just coming of citalopram but that helped me greatly.

I really hope you're ok tonight as they're awful

[naswm]

thanks - have seent that site before, but good to be reminded.

had a slice of toast but pc screeen is playing up (again) grrrrr so cant sit here for long grrrrr. Although I coudl do with chatting on here or msn for a while

thanks for sharing Jolly - I use various 'techniques' and last night it was visualising numbers in a so doku grid that I had to focus on

dh doenst know anything and is not supportive

I am not on meds dizzy - although I have been on various meds over the years. I had lorazepam sitting beside me last night (as well as a box of other meds too...) but couldnt bring myslf to take anyting in case it made me sick altrhough logically I know it nmight have helped I coudlnt allow myself to take it. How pathetic?

I am 'ok' atm. I hope I remain ok. Ridiculously I am desperate for a drink (I am an alcoholic) but the panic is overruling everything atm and I cant allow myself to.

I hope I am not saying too much now. This is why I 'left' mn because I was saying too much. But I am a bit fragile atm and am not being careful with my words

[MissisBoot]

Can you have a hot bath or something. Try not to think to much (difficult I know) Can you call AA to give you some support to help you get through not drinking?

Have you been taught breathing exercises?

Hope you're doing ok?

[noonki]

Hi

Well done for not drinking

don't do it you know you will feel much worse for it

I used to have daily panic attacks and haven't had one for years now.

the thing that broke it for me was realising that I can hypervent away and nothing bad would really ever happen. Once I realised that I would start one and then think

'hang on a minute, what's the point might as well not carry on" and it worked a treat.

Do you have any Kalms? They are a good half way house,

other things that really helped me:
going to bed early
not drinking
bath with lavender oils
exercise
telling someone (even samaritains once) that I was feeling anxious and suicidal. It's amazing how that just saying it out loud can make you feel better

Really hope you feel better soon. Sounds like you are going through the mill at the moment, hope you come out the other side soon.

[naswm]

thanks

taken sleeping pillss

gogin to try to sleep

will report back and repond to kind posts then

Nx

[noonki]

hope you have a good kip x

[naswm]

Just reporting in. Slept ok. Was woken but generally it was ok. I am being cautious this morning but think I am ok.

hello BB - yes, I have used them lots in the past, although not for PA rather in 'other' times of crisis.

Thanks everyone for your kind comments last night, I am very appreciative.

Nas
x

[naswm]

thanks BB. I seem to have gone into hyper mode this morning - cooking big roast lunch, making pudding, cakes etc. So I hope I am not just mentally running away from whatever was going on on Friday night. Because I know that isnt good.

Grrr

[JollyPirate]

Glad to hear you had a good night naswm - enjoy your big roast lunch. Keep posting here so that those of us who understand panic attacks can support - even cyber support can be helpful.

[naswm]

thanks. I am grateful for the support. I still have this damn pc problem though where I am afriad my screen will die at any minute, but while it is still alive I will use the support here. Thank you

Going to check the lunch now....

Hope everyone has a nice day The sun is shining here so I think I might try to take the DSs out on their bikes after lunch. It feels daunting but I know I can do it. I hope

[naswm]

anyone here?

[noonki]

Hi there, i've been wondering how you were doing today,

Glad you had a good night. Did you take the boys out? if so how was it?

[naswm]

hi - not doing great atm - not panicky, just nor ill, just seriously fucked off

[noonki]

sorry just seen this what's up?

[naswm]

missed this before, was at bottom of lots of threads. Have had coupel fo dodgy 'association' nights since Frioday. Idiot that I am.

I am a mess atm tbh. but tyring v hard to put a good face on and pretend all is erosy

thanks noonki