i have been going thru a particularly bad patch of deppression,been seeing a counsellor and take ads.
last week i had a really rough few days and thought about killing myself didnt tell anyone but was really haunted by the impulse to do it.eventually i broke down and my 18 year old son was an angel to me ,just telling someone made me feel so much better,
have seen my counsellor and gp about this and will be getting some extra support and change of ads,
the most awfull thing about this was i text my husband after i spoke to my son and told him how awfull i felt and how bad i was feeling and he was dont worry will help you thru thu this and do all i can.
but about 9.30 buggered off to play in his band at a pub ,i have never asked him to stay at home and help me with the 5 and 7 year old littles ones ,but he just went.
he has been suportive since but just needed him to be there at that moment its eating me up.he knew how low i was he went out again friday nite .
my gp and counsellor were really shocked about just going out .i feel so pissed off today with him ,its not that he doesnt understand how bad i am just less important than going to the pub..
i feel really neglected by this hurtfull behaviour ,he makes excuse s to go out all the time,, sorry just need to get it off my chest ,incase i explode
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wornoutbyarguing · 28/09/2008 15:27
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