I'm so tired, even when I wake up. And my baby isn't a bad sleeper, I'm just so, so tired and have no energy for anything. The house is an enormous mess, I haven't done anything to it for literally weeks except prepare meals for my ds during the day and for us all at night. I just eat snacks all day so I don't have to cook. I can't do the house, it feels and insurmountable task.
I feel really ashamed of how I look, I often don't get washed or dressed until dp is almost home (scared of what he'll think) I don't look after myself and I really just want to be left alone. I don't want to go out, or to tidy my house so people can come round. I just want to lie down somewhere quiet and have no responsibilities.
I'm also ashamed of the second rate job I'm doing of parenting my ds. He's a beautiful happy boy and he seems fine, spot on developmentally but we don't go out enough, and I don't do much more than the basics for him. He's always clean and fed and has plenty of toys but I feel like I'm not playing with him enough, or helping him learn enough. I feel terrible about this.
His birthday is coming up and everyone has these expectations of what I should be doing for it, but I'm not interested. I just want it all, and them all, to go away and leave me alone.
My sister suggested this might be PND, I don't know what to think. Namechanging because I'm ashamed.
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Is this postnatal depression?
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violentviolet · 28/07/2008 18:43
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