ok if i just write everything down in a quick rant maybe i'll feel better...

[chunkypudding]

feeling very low today. have lovely ds who is 15 weeks today, things are def getting easier as we get to know each other but although he settles well in the evening he has started waking a few times in the night again for food.

so i'm feeling really, really tired and everything is getting on top of me. found out last week that my mum, who i love to pieces and who is a wonderful wonderful granny (first time!) has breast cancer. prognosis is highly positive, drs are very hopeful that a mastectomy will sort everything without chemo or radiotherapy which is good.

but of course she' my mum, i love her and i'm worried about her. also entirely selfishly, although she doesn't live near me she has been my rock (along with dp and my dad) since my wee boy was born and has always pulled me thru if i've started to struggle, i can't lay my nonsense on her now as she has enough on her plate (i do still talk to her about how its all going just don't want to be too down with her for obvious reasons)

and my ds has early teething probs and this morning my dishwasher flooded the kitchen and blew up, shorting out everything in the kitchen and i nearly lost it completely...

there, that'll do for now, just wanted to feel sorry for myself a bit

[binkleandflip]

I understand about having a new baby and having a mum diagnosed with breast cancer - virtually the same thing happened to me although dd was a little older than your ds. It's terrifying.

If the drs are hopeful then you have to believe everything will turn out well. Tiredness will always make things worse (the bad news is your gonna be tired from now til he's 18 ) only kidding, once he gets into a routine you willl be able to get more sleep.

[chunkypudding]

thanks... nice to hear from someone as feelin a bit lonely today! as you say, tiredness really does make everything seem worse.

am generally a pretty positive person so plan to pull myself together shortly...

thanks for the kind words x

[binkleandflip]

No worries, I think there is a cancer support thread on here somewhere which is quite useful if you get down about stuff.

Hope it all goes well for your mum