This is probably going to be long but I really feel I just need to write this all down.
My mum and dad split up when I was young, don't remember much about it. Mum started drinking alot and met a new man (now my stepdad) but they used to go down the pub, get drunk, leave me and younger brother on our own, come home and fight and argue and I hated that. When Mum gets drunk now I can't deal with it and hate to be around her when she's had a drink and she used to tell me she has things to tell me.
Things got abit better and I moved out when I was 19 with my OH and she went onto have 2 more girls.
I went to america with OH for 2 years and then fell pregnant with DD1 so we decided to come home. He has nearly always worked away in the week and he is a workaholic, doesn't like to spend money and doesn't support me very much. We now have DD2 and he still works away, I was diagosed with PND last year, took the tablets and came off them couple of months ago which I was really proud of. While I had PND I had hardly any support off OH. He doesn't understand how I feel and how had I find it when he is away all week and I have to deal with the kids all the time. We speak once a week during the week and our communication is quite bad, eg I never know what time he land on fridays. I can't talk to him very well as he is always right and he makes me out to be the one in the wrong and he ends up shouting at me. I am now 26, he is 8 years older than me and we have been together 10 years this year. He is very much nto his family but more in a way of providing for the family and earning the money.
Sometimes all i ask for is a cuddle on the sofa, some compliments, a nice meal even if it is at home, I just want to be made to feel special.
Thanks for reading, don't really know wat you can say but sometimes I just wind myself up so much about him being away and not having the support I really want.
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warmsummersday · 12/02/2008 21:46
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