PND and anxiety?

[Shoobiedoo]

Hello
I think I might be starting to suffer from PND. I thought I was OK as I had suffered from depression in the past and I don't feel like I did then.
But I have noticed that I am pretty much anxious most of the time about the baby and it is becoming hard to deal with. For eg, I am getting exhausted because I never get a break from the childcare as I can't relax enough to leave DP in charge. It's not that I don't trust him, but my fears that something will go wrong if I leave him for a bit are becoming more intrusive. I worry about crazy things like DP going down the stairs too fast and dropping the baby, the baby choking on his milk if DP feeds him, DP sleeping too heavily and rolling three feet across the bed in his sleep and squashing the baby, DP driving too fast with the baby on board, DP going near ledges and balconies with the baby (think Michael Jackson). It is driving me nuts, I feel ashamed to admit these irrational fears almost but if I don't talk about it it is worse IYKWIM. Also, supposed to be going to Ireland to see the inlaws but I have irrational fears about the baby somehow falling overboard from the ferry. Sheesh.
Sometimes I can see them as irrational. But other times the fears are so vivid that I can?t bear it. An example: I don?t want DP to take the baby into his work because the entrance to his office is on a second floor mezzanine level with a 50 foot drop and a glass barrier about 4 foot high instead of railings/banister and you have to pass within feet of it to get to the office door. I just can?t let go of the idea that DP will somehow go too close to the edge while holding the baby. Therefore the solution in my mind is that the baby will never go to the office unless I am taking him and he is strapped into his buggy.
Two nights ago I couldn't get to sleep until 5am, because I had got myself worked up about SIDS. Again last night I couldn't sleep until 5 am , then the baby woke at 6am so I am totally shattered and sleep deprived.
The thing is, I have been able to leave the baby for a few hours with my mum and with DPs mum, I trust them both totally and feel completely at ease with leaving him with them. It is just DP. I can't really tell him as how do you tell a father that you don't trust him to keep the baby safe?
I realise that maybe us becoming parents may have brought up some deeply buried trust issues that I have in relation to DP. But I do not know what to do about it, and what with the sleep deprivation I can feel myself losing it by the day.
Can I just add that I don?t have much support as I have just moved house away from friends and family and DP is not home much anyway since he is pretty much a workaholic and I have to fight all the time to get him to come home from the office.

[NAB3]

Sounds like PND to me. I have had it 3 times and have had exactly the same feelings.

[Mindles]

I am very similar to this with pnd, and I was referred to a community psychiatric nurse who came to assess me on Weds, she said I have a big problem with anxiety which makes the depression worse. I frequently keep myself awake at night because I think the baby is going to stop breathing or worry that dp will somehow 'break' our son. Have you told anyone you think you have pnd/anxiety problems?

[Mindles]

My family are far away too, do you have any friends at all in the area? I personally find mother and baby groups horrific but think they may be a necessary evil sometimes. I think if you see your GP or HV or something they will be able to help you with the anxiety and possibly also put you in touch with other mums in your area.

It's important you feel confident leaving your baby with your DP or else how can you ever have a lie-in?