Every time I encounter challenges in life I wish they'd never happened. I can think of examples at work (secondary teacher), having my children, and now we just recently got a dog. I worry all the time I won't cope. I've seen a counsellor twice and she is totally lovely. I have supportive friends, and a retired friend who will walk the dog when I have later evenings at school, if she's available but my cleaner would probably walk the dog if I was ever stuck, and I am planning to touch base with a dog walker soon for those situations.
I know I sound really lucky. I have a husband who will walk the dog every morning, 99% of the time.
But my resilience is low. Whenever I have a challenge I get huge feelings of dread and think/assume I won't cope, or can't cope. I'm a worrier. I worry about having a dog and making my sons' commitments, such as karate and Beavers.
When you worry, what do you do? Can you help me? It's starting to be hard to bear. What I'd like to do, although I wouldn't, it end it all. I can't run away because everything at home hinges on me. But everything seems like such hard work all of the time and I don't feel happy although I have happy moments. I think of the rest and lack of worry that death would offer, and it is tempting. But at the same time I wouldn't necessarily class myself as suicidal.
The counsellor is lovely and she says my worries are all normal worries. I haven't told her that death - feeling and being nothing - is tempting because she's a problem solver and positive. It's hard not to be when I'm with her.
Is anyone the same? Have you got any tips for building my resilience? I'd rather not take medication. Thank you.
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FennyBridges · 09/01/2017 19:07
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