Just needed to let this out somewhere. I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for as long as I can remember- reached the point of a suicide attempt as a teen and then just settled into a low-level fugue at best and everything in between ever since then.
My tolerance for other people is at an all-time low and I'm snappy and withdrawn all the time. I can't stand being touched by anyone, people unexpectedly bothering me, any changes at home i.e. someone coming over at short notice. It's incredibly noticeable when I'm stressed and irritated, which is a lot of the time. I can manage my own life okay but people are unbearable to me. I just want them all to stay far, far away. I know I'm behaving in a vile way but I just feel so thin-skinned right now- anything seems to take me out of my comfort zone puts me in a downward spiral: criticism, questions about what I'm going to do with my life, light-hearted jokes at my expense. Someone walking into the room when I just want to be by myself makes me want to scream. It's horrible for others as well as me.
I don't know what to do. I want to be alone but that's impossible. I just feel overloaded all of the time. I have no idea what to call it or how to cope.
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Mental illness has turned me into a horrible person towards others
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tediousandstrange · 25/11/2016 15:02
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