I was sexually abused as a child.
Yuck yuck yuck. I don't think I've ever written that down before and I've gotten used to saying it aloud when necessary.
Anyway, I've been diagnosed as depressed since my first suicide attempt that landed me in hospital, 7 years ago.
I had some rubbish counselling a couple of years previous to that because I have awful dreams but that didn't resolve anything ended for reasons I can't remember.
I have been on and off anti-depressants because of my failure to keep doctor's appointments and actually take the medication and probably have never taken them for the 6 weeks they say it takes for them to take effect, despite being on a fairly high dose.
A few years ago, I was again offered some counselling, which I went to but ended up walking out of the first session as I thought she was very rude to me and made me sit in silence because she said I liked control 'too much' probably true
Since then, I have had no 'treatment' other than the medications and I clam up too much at doctor's appointments to talk to them about the childhood things so think they think I'm depressed just because, rather than brought on by an incident.
Sorry about the ramble, but it brings me to my question... could this be PTSD? It's only just occurred to me and have, annoyingly, just come out of a doctor's appointment.
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Do I have PTSD? Or is it just depression?
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HazelnutCoffeeandMincePies · 07/11/2016 16:52
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