I am the main carer for my DH who suffers from episodes of psychosis. For years we bumbled from one crisis to another not understanding what was going on or why. He finally got picked up by a fab mental health team about 3 years ago after a catastrophic crisis where we lost absolutely everything. After that we seperated for a while and I was treated for depression triggered by the stress. We rebuilt our relationship and our lives have been through a stable few years where life has been better than it has ever been.
I thought that finally withthe right support and medication for my DH we could enjoy our lives and everything was going well. The psychiatrist gradually reduced and then stopped his medication and all seemed ok. A few months ago he had another crisis out the blue after a stressful period at work. We were away from home at the time and I was had to get him detained for emergency assessment and then track down the relevant teams in the local area. The episode itself was very traumatic with him becoming very agitated and distressed and being detained by the police. He had a horrific time as we was too agitated to be managed in the hospital and was detained in the police cells. I had no sleep and then when following assessment he was released had to get him safely home whilst he was really angry with me for getting him detained.
His team at home have got him back on medication and things have settled but he is by no mean back to where he was prior to this episode. He doesn't want to talk to me about whats happened. We used to talk about everything and he would tell me about his mental state and let me support him. Now he's shutting me out, he doesn't want me to have any involvement or contact with his CPN or the family liason nurse who's role is to support me as his carer. He thinks I'm medling. I have been in contact with his CPN behind his back when I feel I need to which I've never felt I needed to do before and makes me feel really guilty though his CPN agrees is necessary. Generally I don't get involved with his appointments with his CPN or psychiatrist as we both agree he needs to be the one in control of managing his mental health.
He's not looking after himself at the moment or following the preventative advice from his CPN, hes recently found out his contract is not being renewed at work and is devistated and angry as he was let to belive it would become perminant. Since this my anxiety levels have sky rocketed and I'm just waiting for another crisis. I feel helpless and am trying to be supportive, but it always falls to me to pick up the pieces. When he's ill it affects me as much as him and it really pisses me off when he doesn't follow the advice he's bedn given and puts himself at high risk of a relapse. Its hell for both of us when he's ill. I love him so much and when he's well hes an amazing husband, theres no way I'd leave him. Our period of seperation was really so hard and I don't want to go back there. I think I just need to vent and have someone listen to me for once.
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AnxiousCarer · 24/08/2016 21:46
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