I'm pretty certain that I have Bipolar disorder (most likely Bipolar II, maybe cyclothymia). I've felt like this for a long time and I work in a Psychology related field so I'm pretty clued up where mental health is concerned. My Dad has Bipolar, but it's much more severe in his case. I've always been afraid that I would eventually receive a diagnosis of bipolar as I've always felt emotionally unstable and misunderstood, even during childhood. It's sometimes hard to know if I truly have bipolar or if I've just convinced myself I do. I can relate to literally every hypomanic and depressive symptom (not full-blown mania though). I've had treatment for depression and social anxiety previously.
My question is this, will I regret seeking help? I know I shouldn't be so threatened by the stigma surrounding bipolar but I'm terrified that I'll be treated unfavourably in the long run. I worry that I'll have my driving license revoked, that I'll be forced to disclose it elsewhere and that I won't be taken seriously by my GP anymore. I'm also very worried that it may interfere with my ability to work with children.
I can't even imagine telling my family, I'm not sure I ever could. I think they'll contrast me to my Father and not be able to entertain the idea that I have bipolar. I believe that they would consider me completely stable in comparison to my Dad. I'm not sure they appreciate that symptoms can differ, also they live quite far away and I'm incredibly skilled at keeping my emotional problems between just my partner and I.
I've battled with whether I should pursue a diagnosis for so long and doubted myself endlessly. I certainly don't want to be made to feel like a fraud by my family. My partner is also convinced I have bipolar and has been for some time.
I just don't know how a diagnosis would affect my life. I realise it's the only way to get well in the long run, but I really need to be prepared for the consequences and I would appreciate some truly honest accounts of what to expect. My intention is to arrange an appointment with my GP in the next week, but any advice will really help in the mean time. Thank you.
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I think I have Bipolar Disorder but I'm terrified about getting diagnosed
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Abb27 · 25/05/2016 01:15
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