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I am 52 years old. My mum got ill with breast cancer when I was 12, was ill on and off or about 8 years and died when I was 20. I don't think I have ever dealt with it properly.
Part of me feels 52 and grown-up, but part of me feels 12 , overwhelmed and emotionally 'scared' of life and the future. I am desperate to move on, as this has caused me enormous problems with depression and anxiety, but I also recognise that part of me is hanging on to that scared little girl whose daddy was still there taking care of everything for her (he died 17 years ago). I have had various bouts of counselling and medication, all of which helps, and I have a wonderfully supportive family & friends who all try their best to help, but I feel so bad dumping on them all the time and thought there might be someone out there in the same boat that I could talk to. Is there anyone else who understands what this feels like?
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Losing my mum - stuck in past
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alovelycupoftea · 30/01/2016 14:12
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