I don't really know where to start but I have got to the point where I feel I may need help.
My dh moved out a month ago, I was the one who asked him to leave, he has mental health issues and on top of other problems I just couldn't take anymore.
We are still in contact and he cones over a couple times a week to see the dc's, we are very much on speaking terms but it's still very raw and emotional.
I am finding it incredibly hard being alone, some days I can keep busy but when I'm not busy I feel so lost on lonely, I spend a lot of time crying, I try not to cry I front of the dc's but this morning I was such a mess I had to call dh to cone and take the dc's to school. I'm finding it hard to sleep and find my mind doing crazy things and thinking random things, I can't sit still or settle in front of the TV, my concentration is poor and I'm starting to let the dc's down . I'm not sure what to do, last week I was really positive but this week I'm feeling almost suicidel , I feel I am failing my dc's and the guilt of removing their dad from the house is killing me. I know I can't gave dh back, I know he won't change but I am missing him so much, he was my best friend and I feel I have no one else I can talk too.
I want to be able to be strong for my dc's but I feel like I'm having a breakdown, I want to be able to be happy alone but it feels like it's killing me being alone. I know it's early days and I don't know if I should try and ride it out in risk of hitting rock bottom or do I go to the doctors and ask for help?
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Depression/breakdown after separation
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Nevergoingtolearn · 20/05/2015 14:02
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