So. This has actually been bugging me since I was small but I've only been able to articulate it more recently.
First I should mention there is a possibility I have Aspergers (although I almost seem hypersensitve to nonverbal cues in some ways, and use facial expressions etc.), in which case this is probably something most of you intinctively understand or might think I'm being odd for asking. If so, explanations as if you're explaining human behaviour to someone from another planet would actually be really useful.
Well, anyway... I just feel inferior. Like a second-rate, lesser human. I am really struggling with depression at the moment, so this isn't unusual I guess. However, there are so many things coming into my head... things that have hurt me over the years, but that still hurt, because I still can't quite understand something... or more like because these memories all confirm my worst suspicions that I'm not the same as others, lesser somehow, and so shouldn't expect things to be the same for me as all the worthy humans.
There's a part of my mind that is terrified to say any of this in real life, because I feel I'd be putting the other person on the spot, in a horribly uncomfortable social faux pas, because then they'd have to explain that I was a second rate human, not worth as much, and it would be all awkward and embarassing for them. I know intellectually this is riduclous, but... its what I feel. (And as I write that, there's a part of my mind saying "Oh, you're only writing that to pretend you're as deserving as the next person, but really you know you're shit!"
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Why are some people automatically treated as "bad"/inferior?
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elementofsurprise · 18/05/2015 21:55
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