Really rubbish at dealing with people!

[fredfredsausagehead1]

Hi!

I have always been like this, liked to be alone, had a few close friends, really close to DH and the kids...

...but I really struggle with people and politics in groups. I struggle so badly with conflict, with people moaning about pathetic things, with seeing other people manipulate friends and acquaintances.

Sometimes I struggle so much with this I make myself believe I am crazy and feel physically agitated for a long time...

...office politics- I e had to leave jobs because I can't cope with it.

...sports clubs and institutes, I really can't cope with the back stabbing and politics

...friendship groups, I avoid them, as I get too upset by the back stabbing

HOWEVER I just can't stop myself being drawn in by it, I stay on the edge but then feel isolated and 'bad' so I engage!

I'm a grown woman what is wrong with me?..

I can spend days and days stewing and obsessing about it all

[EauRouge]

I've PMed you, hope that's OK

[fredfredsausagehead1]

Thank you