Convinced I'm going to die - is this anxiety?

[notme23]

Really struggling to put this into words, but I'm going to try.

I feel like I'm going to die. That there's something wrong inside me, I don't know what it is, an undiagnosed disease or something and I haven't got long left to live.

I know it's really stupid and logically I know I'm most likely wrong, but it's like I can't shake it. It keeps me awake at nights sometimes. I have a cough at the moment, and the first day it came out I felt so ill, it just kept popping into my head "it's not a cough, it's probably lung cancer and you'll die". I have a spot on the very inside crease of my thigh but it's not a spot it's cancer. I woke up in the middle of the night after a really weird dream and my heart was racing and I thought I was going to have a heart attack.

What scares me as well is my Dad killed himself a few years ago, he had been diagnosed with Crohns disease about a year before, but he became convinced that he was dying and that it wasn't Crohns but something worse that medical staff kept missing. I'm not planning on killing myself at all but I'm sure my Dad wasn't before he did, and I have a fear that I will end up following the same path.

I don't know why I'm feeling like this right now. At the beginning of the year, I was suffering from a low mood and was prescribed something by my GP to help, and it did, and honestly 2014 has been a really good year for me. I feel like I have grieved for my father and although it will always affect me and I will always miss him, but that I am over the worst of the pain and through the other side of the grief, if you know what I mean. I feel happier at the minute than I have in a long time, life is going really well right now, so I can't understand why I feel like this now.

I've thought about going to see the GP, but what could they really do? I feel happy in my day to day life, so don't see how any treatments (medication, talking therapies, etc) could help me and I just wondered if anyone had any advice at all?

[Millie2013]

Yes, this sounds like health anxiety and sounds really tough, you poor thing. Please go back to your GP, it sounds like you need a different kind of help

[Alphonso]

Sorry you're going through this. There is lots that can be done though. Do go to the GP. Talking therapy in particular is very helpful for this kind of anxiety. Ask for a referral to IAPT or look on the BACP website for a private psychotherapist if you are not short of spondulicks.