It is many years ago now, but I was subjected to severe emotional and physical abuse by my mother. I was 6 or 7 when it started. Experiences include my mother attempting to kill me and my little brother (I was 7, my brother 2). She swore me to secrecy about it, with threats that we would be separated, taken away and put in a children's home, she would be locked up and it would all be my fault.
A few months ago I began to have vivid flashbacks to these kind of events and I sought help though my GP and was referred for psychiatric help. I have been diagnosed with complex PTSD, severe Generalised Anxiety Disorder and Major Depression. I am on a drug regime and have just started psychotherapy.
For the most part, I have managed to 'get on' with my life without what I call 'all the crap' dragging me down. I don't know if other people, unfortunate enough to have been abused, feel as I do at the moment, but I really resent this coming back at me like this (horrendous, vivid flashbacks and nightmares) after so many years. My mother is dead and still she won't leave me alone. I wish I could erase all the awful stuff from my memory bank.
I am very glad to be getting treatment, although getting the right drugs is tricky and currently I'm having to withdraw from one lot to move onto something more suitable.
I'm so very tired of it all and would love to hear positive stories from people who have managed to put an extremely difficult childhood behind them.
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Abused as a Child & Experiences Now Haunting Me - WARNING Possible Trigger
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SeventiesFurniture · 25/09/2014 18:10
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