I think DH has depression

[Saltire]

Well, I don't think it, I know it. He has always had these periods of what he calls "darkness", very unfrequently, and would go very quiet, not speak ofr a couple of days then be fine.
The last two he has had have been quite close together and the most frequent lasted 72 hours and he said he had suicidal thoughts.
The last couple of months has been very stressful for both of us, he has left the military and got a new job which pays a lot less, and we are having issues with housing, we have a house, but he didn't want to live in it, he was pressuring me to buy one. Anyway we are moving into our own house for the time being

DH said that when he gets this "darkness" he says in his unstable mind that it is all my fault, I am at the root of the problem and he says that when he feels like that he actually hates .

I have finally convinced him that he is probably suffering with depression, he wants to make a doctors appointment when we move and he wants me to go with him so that he doesn't gloss over it.

I was close to leaving him on Friday he had spoken, eaten or slept for 3 days.

[LastingLight]

It certainly sounds as if a doctor's appointment as soon as possible is the way forward. Depression robs you of all joy and messes with your mind, often to the detriment of those closest to you. If you at all can, stick with your DH and help him get treatment. The man you fell in love with is still somewhere in there. It is ok to set some ground rules and tell him that some of the things he says is very hurtful to you. Depression should never be used as an excuse for bad behaviour, even though it might be an explanation.