Need help and advice

[missusangry]

I've changed my name for this thread, because I'm embarassed. I also don't know whether this is the right place to post this, but what the heck, here goes.
Basically, my problem is that I'm always stressed and angry.
I try and try to control it, and usually I manage, but every so often (and unfortunately it's getting more often) I just explode for the slightest thing.
For example, yesterday, I was at a safari park with my 3 youngest children and got into an argument with another mum with culimated in me calling her a bitch and telling her to 'eff off' I must have sounded like the worst sort of trailer park trash. Unfortunately this is just the most recent of a long string or similar incidents and they're getting worse. I also regularly lose my temper with my dh and my children. When I'm not angry, I feel depressed and totally fed up and hopeless and I regularly feel unable to cope with life particularly the fact that I have four children and work nearly full-time and due to money problems am probably going to have to go full time very soon. Life is just so hectic that I feel out of control and unable to cope.
I try and try to be a nice, calm person but I just can't quite manage it. Can anyone suggest anything I can do to to control my anger or am I beyond hope

[Squarer]

You don;t sound beyond hope to me. For starters, you are here asking for help. Anger management is often linked in with depression. Are your little ones too old for Health Visitor involvement? If not talk to your Health Visitor. If so, talk to your doctor. Either one should talk about Anger Managment courses. Hope you find a path out x

[missusangry]

Thanks Squarer - my youngest is 2. Don't know whether that's too young for HV involvement or not. I have thought about speaking to my GP about it - she offered to sign me off with stress last year, but I was too embarassed to let her do it. Anger management sounds so serious though, like the sort of thing hardmen with tatooed knuckles and criminal records would need not people like me. Or am I just deluding myself.

[Squarer]

No, I don't think you are deluding youself. It's a very real part of depression that many many women go through but is not generally accepted in the vision of aprons and ribbons throught which motherhood is frequently viewed. I think HV's are responsible for looking after you (yes, you) up until youngest being 5