Hello ,
I've never posted in here before , but I feel as though I need some help! I'm a mature student, single parent, one DD. About to go in to third year and I'm really struggling. I had PTSD last year (long complicated history) and I think I'm doing Ok now. Bad days and good days, just like everyone else.
Thing is, just lately everything has been so hard. I'm really struggling financially; have had to borrow money from friends, and now a very expensive and essential household item needs replacing. It's just one thing after another after another and I'm fed up of always struggling, not even having bus fare to go and see my friends or go and do anything. I was crying earlier because I'm so fed up of feeling as though I don't exist, and pretty much everyone at uni ignoring me or bitching about me behind my back. The course is full of spitefulness. I'm not horrible, though I did kick off once in group work when others didn't pull their weight, were late and hadn't prepared (bad of me, I know).
I've not been anywhere really all Summer, and have done loads of work for my dissertation and everything. I feel really stuck. I feel as though I'm destined to fail, the work isn't good enough, I can't remember anything and I have spent the past two years doing absolutely nothing of any use. Just paying more and more childcare, struggling through life, and always feeling like a failure.
I have applied for a master's course, I know its right for me but I don't feel as though I have any hope of getting in. I just feel as though I'm going to mess up and waste everything.
I don't know whether I should carry on with my course, or what to do really. So tired of counting the pennies just so my Daughter can have a pair of school shoes.
That's all really. Sorry. I needed to say that.
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Katkins1 · 06/09/2013 17:46
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