Not sure what to say

[anxious10]

I have been having strange experiences this week on top of not really sleeping much, if at all some nights. I was talking to personnel woman at work because she thought I was "not my normal self" and a lot of stuff came out and now she has advised me to see the GP, which I have booked for tomorrow a.m.
Now I'm really regretting it and wondering if I should cancel, I don't want to tell anyone the things I'm experiencing, I'm so panicky about this because I'm terrified they'll stop me seeing my kids ( I already had to give up living with them and have spent the past year gradually building up trust and contact) I feel like all my work has been wasted. So upset.

[Lois123]

Just cancel your appoinment :)

[SuzannePetal]

Don't cancel ur appointment. See ur gp. Its all confidential. I am bipolar and also a mum. Gp is there to help u. Dont let urself get worse before u get better, u could loose everything. I dont know ur symptoms but it wont hurt talkin to someone in confidence.

[shodatin]

I'd see the GP I think - you do seem to be unhappy and in need of help, and they are used to listening. It's confidential too.
If you're unhappy about talking, why not make a list of the things bothering you, and just hand it over when you go in, saying it's difficult to talk. He/she will understand.
Hope all goes well.

[anxious10]

I did go to the GP and got an emergency CPN appt, she gave me some tranquilisers but they didn't work and I ended up being sectioned again and now I feel so fucking useless and back on the same old wheel. Don't know how many more times I can go through this shit.

[snowmash]

Do you want to talk about it? I'm here if you do.

[anxious10]

Feel like I saw the signs and yet it was still too late. I hate my life so much, it is just one crisis after another. I thought I'd done well to last a year without anything happening to me, then this comes at me again. Really fed up tonight.I have been put back on anti-psychotics, which I hate but guess I have no choice. Feel like it is all out of my control again and I'm a total failure.

[FloMotion]

Apologies for butting in, i am new to this malarkey so not sure whether its really the done thing to just jump in like this, please excuse me if i'm interupting but i just want to say that i really feel for you, and don't dismiss that entire year - that was 365(ish) days of not feeling out of control or a total failure, you must credit yourself with that if you're comparing what's happening now with what went before, don't underestimate your acheivements. Don't give up, have faith in yourself and be kind to yourself, please :)