hi girls
i just needed to talk and tell someone how i feel i need some advice .
i had my ds 10 months ago by c section a month early due to pre eclampsia. i felt a faliure as a mum from the moment he was put im my arms. i really wanted a natural birth i felt like i missed out on labour and birth . i kept thinking ive got a baby but not experienced birth . i was unable to breastfeed also due to him being early and my milk not coming in i tred for 4 horrible days untill the dr said he needed formula . another faliure moment !!.
i have alway suffered with low self esteem and low confidence since a child and always doubt my abilities but i didnt think i would feel like this when i became a mum . i had been ttc for 2 years and suffered a mc in feb 09 and got pg with ds 3 months after . maybe my body was ready but my mind wasnt ?
i feel i have wasted my time off with ds by not wanting to go out or socalising with other mums as i felt like a bad mum i didnt want poeple thinking the same . i didnt leave the house for 6 weeks over summer. i went back to work as a a+ e nurse in oct last year but only lasted a month before i went to dr and started on anti depressents . i am just starting to feel better .
i just wanted to share my story and see if anyone else is going through the same thing as me .
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why do i feel like this hes all i ever wanted
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MrsKate · 27/01/2011 12:09
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