I'm 31 weeks pregnant with my first baby and have suffered from this phobia for 30 years. I am having CBT which is helping the surrounding issues (going out, eating) but I'm getting more and more frightened of how my behaviour is going to affect my DS. I'm cleaning soo much that I have to hide it now and wait for OH to go to work. My hands are like sandpaper that's cracked and bleeding which I can't hide though and he's banned me from washing up which makes me more anxious (I still do it though). I'm so tired as I'm not sleeping , this may be because of pregnancy anyway but I'm so worried about the future.
I love my son already in a way I hadn't expected and I'm really excited about him being born but so scared as well. I want him to have a normal childhood and I know he will need to be exposed to germs in order to develop his immune system but the consequences of not having a sterile house terrifies me.
I'm also worrying about giving birth even though I'm seeing a consultant and have told him I NEED anti emetics in labour. I' planning a home birth because the thought of being in hospital during noro season is so frightening. I'm not a martar and would love to have pain but will just use TENS and water as can't risk gas and air or pethidine (even consultant advised me against pethidine!) because of side effects.
Please can you tell me
- How you cope(d) with all this?
2)WHat anti emetics you were given and about your birth experience, were you sick?
Sorry to go on for so long, feeling particularly bad today.