Depression? Or just Normal? Or something else?

[SingleMumAndProud]

One day I fell like I love my life to bits and wouldn't change my life for anything. And then the next day I feel shit, and just cry randomly and wish there was a way out.

I don't have any friends or family locally, so if I were to talk to any professional about this, I would have to bring my 2 DC along with me (neither are at school age).

I defiantly don't want to talk to anybody I know about this. I don't know why, but I really really don't want them to know.

[Chatelaine]

What are your circumstances? Are you reasonably secure regarding housing, finance for example. It is hard being on your own with LO's, but it can get better if you are willing to go out and meet others for example. If you are too proud to confide in a health professional, then maybe this suggests you have good insight and self awareness and you can manage things yourself with informal advice. However, if you feel physically run down then you would do well to see your GP as few people could manage to look after themselves, let alone others without feeling well. Best wishes.

[SingleMumAndProud]

Yes I have a house. My finances are not great as my ex is refusing to pay child maintenance and has left me with all our debt.

I am going out and meeting people and have made some new friends. But new friends are never the same - I can't phone a new friend and as her to babysit or listen to all my problems. We are not really at that atage yet if you see what I mean?!

[Chatelaine]

Yes iswym regarding new friends. Do you feel down because you are basically on your own coping with young children and are isolated? If so that is a horrible feeling and can lead to feelings of depression.

[SingleMumAndProud]

I don't really think that is how I am feeling (although would be simplier if it was!)

I go to groups/park/soft play etc most days so talk to loads of new people, I do still speak to family a lot and have visistors at times and will see them today when I pick up the kids from their Dads (This is the first time he has had them there so I have had a break from them for once - but had so much to do I have hardly stopped!)

[SantaIsAnAnagramOfSatan]

can you call the surgery and ask them what they do in these circumstances - that you need to talk to a doctor about a sensitive matter but that you have no childcare? hopefully they'll be able to have the children or something?

horrible thought that women can't access a GP if they don't have childcare.

sounds like you do have a lot of stress/change. how long have you been split from ex?

i know what you mean with the one day fine the next day a mess - just me but i find that's like the warning stage that something's got to give and if ignored things get worse.

well done btw on being out there and meeting people and keeping busy - i'm a hider!