I am 39 weeks and recently found out that my mum is dying of end stage liver disease. she came out of hospital 10 days ago having made good physical progress. Unfortunately she has suffered some neurological damage and is now quite confused. We have been told she has about 6 months to live.
It would take the world's longest post to describe all the emotions and conflicts i am going through. The physical deterioration we see in her is in retrospect the easiest to deal with, but "losing" her sharp presence in my life at a time when i really need my mum is more than i can bear to deal with. Also i feel terribly guilty that i can't be there to support her in the way i want as i am stuck at home in beached whale state, waiting to give birth.
I am lucky in that my wonderful brothers have arranged fantastic care for her and she is being well looked after at home until such time as she needs to go into a hospice.
None of this was ever how it was supposed to be - there is no good time to experience either end of the circle of life but both coming to me for the first time in this way is something i never foresaw.
Overall i am just so sad, for my mum who is no longer who she was just a few short weeks ago. Sometimes i just sit here for hours just crying, and it is all making me stress so much about the baby - what if anything goes wrong with the LO.
Bit of a rambling post i know, but just don't know what to do with myself somedays.
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about to give birth and my mother is terminally ill
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sophus · 28/08/2007 17:29
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