My mum died on 26th Jan 2007. She was my rock. My best friend. The emotions I feel about her death are boundless. I cannot quantify how sad and desolate I feel without her.
She left my abusive, alcoholic father when i was young. He has not had any involvement in my live at all. I have thought about him, and about my roots, but not missed having him. I made the decision not to involve him in my adult life.
I have, in the last few weeks, just started to griev for my um, its taken some time, and its very very very raw still.
My sister phoned today, left a message on my ansafone, telling me my dad died. He died on 11 May 2007, in his bed, alone.
I feel, lots of things. I dont know what I feel really. I feel tearful. I feel anger. I feel nothing. I feel like my world that I thought I knew has been ripped from beneath my feet and I dont know what to do.
He is being cremated on 5th June. Should I go? I dont know.
I know its late. I know there is not a chance of a responce! I just needed to write it down. Its all falling apart, this life I thought I understood.
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LittleMissPositive · 25/05/2007 00:43
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