As we go through this painful journey together we share, cry, scream and shout but we never judge, we know that there is always someone to listen. We always remember our precious children who will never be forgotten and will live on forever in our hearts.
Thanks for your words, shabba and chip. And yes, we did get a holiday with Mia, you are quite right to remind me of all the good memories we DO have. But something is not quite right with the world when the first thing you do when you arrive somewhere is look for the hospital and the emergency services...
Oh I know how you feel about the holiday thing Mias. Our first holiday without Matt was in Teneriffe....just me, DH and Danny. The sun shone brightly and we loved the rest...BUT the first time the hotel had a 'Kids Disco' I had to run out of the room. All those bright eyed, suntanned little kids enjoying the disco and dancing to all the songs. Matt should have been doing that as well - in fact he would have been the first up on the dance floor!!
Oh Mias, that must be so hard. And I know this probably won't be a huge comfort but you did have a holiday with Mia and you have those memories to hold on to. We never got to have one with Sylvie-Rose.
Shabba there are days that pass without notice (like a car journey) - please don't feel guilty.
Sorry to be self-indulgent, but I am in unreasonable tears & don't know where else to 'park' this. It has just been announced that Kate M has had a little boy, which is brilliant news. I can't help but think of the birth of my lovely DS2, who we thought wouldn't survive beyond 5 at best (& is currently bathing DS4 & is a lively, wonderful, almost 17) & DS3, who arrived in the world with a bang, & who we never thought we would lose None of us know, do we?
Congratulations, Kate and William: hold him tight xx
shabba, I think the fabulous weather makes us all go around half-zonked! I actually forgot my dsis' birthday last week. I am not great with birthdays but only just remembered in time to send her a message. Still haven't got her a pressie!
Yes I do think of him every day Lavandes - you are right! Just realised that nobody in the entire family remembered. My lovely SIL always sends me a text or rings on the important dates but she didn't do that either.....and, as for my amazing Mum.....she rang me about 100 times to ask what date it was - part of me is glad she doesn't remember that horrible day xxx
yesterday was Gareths 31st 'remember day.' I spent the day feeling really fed up and sad but couldn't figure out why. I forgot it was the anniversary! Forgive me little lad. I dont know if that was a good or bad thing.....but its the first time I have ever forgotten xxx
;(((chip))) you were very brave reading that out loud to ds3.
Thank you everyone for your kind words about the damage to Mia's Wood. We are more annoyed than anything - you can't make stupid people better, but we can buy a new gate, so in an odd way, I feel sorry for them...
I have been reading the Anne of Green Gables books to ds3. We are on Anne's House of Dreams and Anne just gave birth to her baby, Joyce, who died at one day old. Ds3 said "Your voice is changing" and I said it was so sad and he said "But it's only a story" and I told him it was bringing back memories. But LM Montgomery lost a child in infancy and she totally gets it, right to the point where Marilla tells her Joyce is better off in Heaven and Anne cries "I can't believe that! I read all those books as a child and it's only now I can see the pain in them.
Mias So sorry to hear about the damage done to Mia's Wood. One of our neighbour's dogs dug underneath the fountain we built for our son & I was numb for a while with despair - a really unexpected reaction for me. We rebuilt the broken part though & it is now more lovely than before (imo). The people who did this to Mia's Wood obviously have unkind souls; what a way to live your life