Lost my baby boy ...

(70 Posts)
marietje Fri 14-Sep-12 18:56:10

I've never posted on here before but I just wanted to write this down. I feel so incredibly sad and I can't believe this happened to us.

I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant last Saturday when I went to the hospital with painful contractions. I got checked and my baby's heartbeat as well as everything else was fine, but I was only 1cm dilated so went home. When I went back the next afternoon with increasingly painful and frequent contractions, they couldn't find his heartbeat any more, even though I felt him move that morning and he had his usual hiccups. From then on everything just seemed like a very bad dream, although I somehow managed to stay very calm throughout. Everybody in the hospital was very supportive and understanding, and I had a great doula, but the reality hit after he was born the next morning.

My husband and I saw him, held him and we called him Oskar. He looked like he was just asleep and he is the most beautiful and sweet little boy I've ever seen.

It's only a few days ago and I know it's going to be a long and hard process, but right now I'm not sure how we can survive this.

Thanks for reading...

Jollyb Fri 14-Sep-12 18:57:36

So sorry to hear about Oskar. X

RandomMess Fri 14-Sep-12 18:58:28

So sorry to hear about Oskar's death sad

cat Fri 14-Sep-12 18:58:30

So sorry for your loss x

MikeLitoris Fri 14-Sep-12 18:58:39

I'm very sorry for your loss.

RIP little Oscar.

WandaDoff Fri 14-Sep-12 18:59:41

So sorry to hear about Oskar sad

GlesgaRocket Fri 14-Sep-12 18:59:59

I can't begin to understand what you must be going through, but i just wanted to say that i am so sorry for your loss.

LadyMargolotta Fri 14-Sep-12 19:00:12

I'm so sorry sad Oskar is a lovely name. Did you take photos of him?

So so sorry for your loss. sad

Everhopeful83 Fri 14-Sep-12 19:02:38

I honestly dont know what to say and cannot even imagine the pain that you must be going through.

I think you are very brave to be able to tell your story and although this probably doesnt mean alot, I am sending you my heartfelt sympathy for your loss.

x

SwimmingLikeADuck Fri 14-Sep-12 19:03:46

Oh my, you poor, poor thing. That must have been, and still be, incredibly shocking. Do you have some real life support? Someone to hold your hand?
Oskar is a lovely name. Im so sorry you are on this long road and send you warm wishes. Look after yourself. More experienced folk will be here in a minute.

fluffacloud Fri 14-Sep-12 19:04:21

What an awful thing to happen. So sorry for your loss.

My thoughts are with you and your husband.

GracieGirl Fri 14-Sep-12 19:04:47

sad

I don't know what to say. So very very sad. It's just not fair.

Overreactionoftheweek Fri 14-Sep-12 19:06:14

I'm so sorry about your loss - Oskar is a lovely name. Sending you lots of love and support x

SarryB Fri 14-Sep-12 19:07:42

Sending hugs and love to you and your partner. Oskar is a gorgeous name.

StrawberryMojito Fri 14-Sep-12 19:09:06

May your special boy rest in peace x

converseconvert Fri 14-Sep-12 19:09:22

I'm so sorry for your loss sad

MangoHedgehog Fri 14-Sep-12 19:09:47

I'm so sorry for your loss. What a dreadful thing to happen. sad sending you and your family warm wishes.

Badvoc Fri 14-Sep-12 19:11:53

What a lovely name.
I am very sorry op.
I simply dont know what else to say.
X

Crimebusterofthesea Fri 14-Sep-12 19:12:08

What a beautiful name for a beautiful boy. I am so so sorry for your loss and send you very warm wishes xx

ByGrabtharsHammer Fri 14-Sep-12 19:12:50

I'm so very sorry. What has happened to you, your husband and Oskar was my greatest fear during pregnancy, and I simply can't imagine the pain you are feeling right now. It's so unfair.

JugglingWithPossibilities Fri 14-Sep-12 19:13:15

I'm so sorry sad
Much love to you from us all on here x

Ninjahobbit Fri 14-Sep-12 19:13:22

so sorry for your loss, cant begin to imagine what you are going through, my thoughts are with you and your partner and extended family.

RIP Oskar sad

crazypaving Fri 14-Sep-12 19:15:48

Oh my God I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how heartbroken you are. How absolutely awful, poor you and poor little Oskar sad

Norem Fri 14-Sep-12 19:20:11

So so sorry for you both.
Some babies just seem to drift away with no warning or reason, it is such a shock and so devastating sad
You will always be oskars mum and dad and he will always be your firstborn, your love for him won't diminish.
I am a midwife and every time this happens it seems so senseless to us too.
Lots of love to you both. X

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