Hi all first post on mn so please bear with me I feel I had a bad childhood which my mother admits to but my father says there are people who have been through worse I harbour alot of anger towards my parents I think and I say think before sometimes I feel love towards them and at other times I don't want them in my life but I feel guilty at the thought of just cutting them out of my life let me give you a few examples of my childhood
My parents were shoplifters they would take me and my younger brother out with them but would leave us in the back of my fathers van for hours at a time a few days a week after school and every saturday
My mother was a drinker and my dad smoked cannabis
My father was very dominant and controlling and my mother was scared of him and would do anything to please him I witnessed a lot of domestic violence and would lie under my duvet at night scared to death
My father hung himself in front of me and my brother when I was thirteen and he was five because my mother left him for a short while,he survived and she took him back
When I was about eight my dad got sent to prison for two years for smashing my uncle's house up in this time I remember my mother posing at the top of the stairs in her underwear and asking me to take pictures of her so she could send him
Alot if times I would wake up at night and they would of gone out for what seemed like hours I remember been very scared
Tbh I could go on and one but these are the main things that do my head in,I have a relationship with both parents still but only because I feel to guilty to cut them of ,I'm sorry if I have given tmi or if I have posted in the wrong place I just want honest replies as I have never really spoke about this aibu to not forgive and forget I am otherwise happy in other aspects of life but I just can't let this go aibu
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Lovinglife786 · 23/09/2016 15:30
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