I'm 26, 5'3 and weigh 13st6 and a size 16. Biggest I have ever been by miles! I used to be a size ten until I had my daughter six years ago, then a 12. Weight went on due to stress and it continued to go up for years until I left my stressful job in February and I've mmaintained until now.
I went on holiday in July and felt like a fat mess. I wanted to hide away, sometimes I did. I didn't eat any crap on holiday because I was constantly remininded by all the babes in their bikinis of how shit I look and seeing myself in the mirror in a swimsuit I felt sick with myself.
My thighs rub. The bottom part of my belly is all flabby and it rubs and can end up slimey which is disgusting. I don't wear nice clothes now because I think what's the point anymore, I'm still going to look fat no matter how pretty the dress is so there is no point in buying it.
I have big insecurities about myself and I try to hide away as much as I can.
I'm doing slimming world and I've been doing it a week now. Lost a few lb. I keep craving crisps, chocolate and takeaways and when I'm bored I think what can I do now? I just want to eat. But I refuse to be this size at xmas, and if I was I would only pile on more, the problem wouldn't go away and by the summer I'd be bigger, feeling worse! Won't go on holiday because I felt suicidal on the last one due to my weight. I can't keep eating like a pig because I'm torturing myself!
So next time I get a craving I'm going to think of my belly slime, the way I felt on holiday and going into a clothes shop and feeling miserable.
What's motivated you to lose weight? Is it mainly health or vanity? Anyone been successful?
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diamond457 · 18/09/2016 20:46
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