Compulsive / binge eating. Need support x

[220hawthorn]

I am new and this is my first post so bear with me. Bit of background: I am 29, 5'9" tall, weigh 12st 8 and wear a a 14-16. At my biggest I was 15 stone and 10 stone at my smallest (before dcs)

My biggest problem is compulsive / binge eating.today as an example has been bad. 1 mars bar, 1dairy milk, 1 Cadbury caramel, 6 milky ways and a 90g bar of Cadbury puddles. I feel disgusted with myself .I feel fat, a failure and want to lose weight. I have done ww in the past but always tried cheating on it. Ie. Using points for chocolate, cakes and biscuits and eating a tiny amount For dinner. I started on slim fast two weeks ago and i must admit I did not feel hungry on it at all (hence why I know this binging is habit and not hunger) I stuck to it to the letter but only lost 1.5lb and as I was a bit hisheartened I stepped off the wagon and have binge ate stupidly all over the weekend. I really need support to world out why I am doing this. Food was never scarse as a child For exampe. I don't drink or smoke so I guess food is my reward after a crap day and when the kids are all in bed. I guess I also have an unrealistic image of what i want to look like . In my case Kate Middleton at her thinnest basically. Maybe I am never going to get much below what I am now...Help!!!!

[yumyumpoppycat]

Well done on your weight loss so far. There is an eating disorder section under Health which has a thread around binge eating which would probably be a good read/ you could join?