Just need some perspective on this as am hopping mad.
Basically- I am a teacher of a secondary core subject and have been for around ten years. Been at my school for about five. Outstanding school according to Ofsted but in reality things are kind of muddled as is often the way in schools I think (or has been in all three I have taught in- which have been ranging from In Special Measures to Outstanding). Very big, inner city, lots of managers. Ten form entry and going up to twelve so just thousands of people. In my subject area there are 19 of us including four coordinators and the head of dept,
Had a baby 18 months ago and was off for the full year. Came back in September 2015 on two days a week. Timetable is an absolute mess- scrappy and no coherency. Have only got one class I see more than once a fortnight. Other members of staff have not helped me to make things easier either. For example I have put a document on the shared area and have asked the other teachers to write in the document what they do with their class the lesson before I see them so that I can plan accordingly. No one ever does it no matter how many times I ask or email asking on my days that I am not in. Consequently I often plan things that the class have already done and end up having to replan at the very last minute on totally on the hoof. It’s incredibly stressful. Added to this the kids can be a bit tasty behaviour wise and so often they play me up as though I am a cover teacher when I come in and we waste half the lesson on bollocks like the seating plan and taking coats off etc. Especially as I am (or used to be!) excellent at behaviour management and never had trouble in that area at all. Oh and my timetable has been chopped and changed three times with classes randomly allocated and taken away to benefit my SLT line manager. One notable case of this was when I was given an SEN class to teach for one lesson a fortnight but not my normal subject but the SEN departments own tailored SEN friendly basic numeracy course. I have never taught it before and know nothing about it. When I went to the SEN department to ask for guidance and a scheme of work they said they couldn’t help as were too busy but to look on the shared area and see what I could cobble together. Just feel like a cover teacher.
So after a departmental review where I was observed with a year 7 group (and got decent feedback) I was called into a friendly enough meeting today with one of the four coordinators. Felt very sorry for her- I used to be 2nd in subject pre baby and so know the stress and bother of dealing with these shitty reviews- where it was suggested that I might like to take part in some “coaching” to help me “improve my teaching and learning” because of a lack of “coherency” in planning and lessons. Asked where this had come from and she said it was just since the observation and “nothing to worry about” it was just about improving things for everyone. She praised my work with the KS4 group I see 4 times a fortnight and said that my work with them is “coherent and beneficial” and that my marking of their work and assessments is good. She raised concerns that I haven’t marked anything for the other groups consistently. I didn’t lose my rag but really wanted to- I KNOW there is no consistency, I KNOW I can’t mark anything effectively for groups I see once a fortnight, I KNOW that I am not planning efficiently enough for the kids to make decent progress. I was very controlled and suggested that my timetable needed rejigging or that I needed meetings with the other teachers of the classes consistently in order to help me plan and teach beneficial lessons. She nodded a lot sympathetically and promised to talk to the HOD about it but I don’t foresee any actual changes to my timetable and no one ever has the time to meet me or can only meet on days I’m not in when I try and arrange meetings.
I just feel humiliated and like my card is marked- I’m obviously being seen within the review to be failing but I have a history of good, solid creative teaching and am- frustratingly- working really fucking hard to achieve absolutely fuck all it seems.
I just want to go and hand my notice in right now to be honest. Obviously am not going to but this had demotivated and depressed me. And to add to it all- unbeknownst to my school- I am six weeks pregnant with number two. Has anyone got any experience of this stuff or have any advice?
Today I feel like I literally do the worst job ever and teaching can just fuck the fuck off.
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