Feel so sad

[gremlindolphin]

We had to have our lovely old boy aged 13 1/2 PTS on Sunday. I miss him so much. I saw him being born and held him while he died.

He had a jolly, loving and much loved life and we were so lucky to have him. His unconditional black furry self has been with me for so many things, happy and sad and I feel utterly lost without him.

I didn't want to go to sleep the day he died because at least he had been there that day and the next day would be a whole day without him.

Dh and dcs miss him too and we have had a good cry and then a lovely time looking at old photos and I am now trying to hold it together but I can feel the sadness in the pit of my stomach all the time.

We are having his body cremated and are deciding where to sprinkle his ashes. He came everywhere with me including to work and I just think of him everywhere so narrowing it down to a special place is quite hard but I am going to let the dcs decide.

He knew so many people and I have had loads of lovely messages which make me cry even more.

Thats it really. x

[midori1999]

I'm so sorry.

[Wolfiefan]

Poor you. Don't rush to a decision about the ashes. See how you feel. Perhaps choose a place you can mark eg by planting something. So sorry to hear of your loss.

[chickydoo]

You poor love.
Have a hug from me. What a lucky dog to have been loved so very much, & what a lucky family to be blessed with such an amazing dog! The pain will ease, but the memories will remain. Try to get some sleep tonight you need to rest.

[ThisIsNotHoneyDragon]

I'm so sorry my lovely . I lost my darling girl in May and miss her terribly, dealing with ds's grief was heartbreaking, and watching little dd trying to comprehend the loss.
Yours was clearly a much loved dog and must have given such a lot in his life to have touched so many. I am sure your dc's will choose a super spot for him.

[hellymelly]

I am so sad reading your post. We lost our lovely dog at Easter, and I'm missing him terribly, and fussing every wirey whiskery dog face I see. It does hurt so horribly when they go, it is the awful price of such an amazing relationship. Sounds as though he had a pretty brilliant life with you.

[Happydaze]

So, so sorry for you

Know exactly how you are feeling, it's like a bad dream, so unreal ...

Sympathy from friends and family seems so hard to deal with, for me it has helped to post on here, just to ramble really and write it down, seems to help getting thoughts and feelings out and you can cry in your own time, no one there to see my blotchy face which I try not to show the dc as I don't want to upset them even more ....

Thinking of you, it is so utterly tragic and sad for you all

[bumpybecky]

I'm so very sorry :(

while I agree not to rush the decision about the ashes, don't put t off too long either - we're almost 18 months on and she's still in a box in the kitchen.

be gentle on yourself and don't be surprised if you burst into tears at the slightest thing :(

[ThisIsNotHoneyDragon]

Yes. Do post on here whenever you need to. I have some lovely Mnet friends on here, and at first they were the only people other than my mum and mil I could bring myself to tell.

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

So sorry :( He sounds like he was a lovely boy x

[AnotherLoad]

sorry for your loss :(

my friends old cat was cremated and the ashes placed inside a cat ornament, she couldnt bear to scatter her ashes and decided to keep her at home.

do they have this for dogs? option? xx

[gremlindolphin]

Thank you all for your responses.

I am feeling more in control today and have so many nice messages but for some reason its nice to communicate with lovely supportive mn people too!

x